Monday, March 14, 2011

Finally...

Finally...After going on and on for the last 2 months about starting a healthy lifestyle and weight loss resolution I have actually done something about it...Good grief it took long enough, not that this is any surprise to me. They always say that you have to be ready emotionally to start a diet, not just intellectually, so I think blabbing about it for a while gets me going and then eventually I get sick of saying, "I am going to start Monday."

I don't think I even started on a Monday this time, it may have been a Sunday, not sure...I woke up with a strange desire to weigh myself, HAHAHAAAA!!!! I couldn't believe it either. I was thinking about NOT weighing because it would be too traumatic, and just going by how my clothes fit...but I knew that wouldn't be motivating enough. I needed a starting point and some kind of clue as to what my body weighs compared to the last time I started a diet (about 3 years ago) Fortunately it wasn't as tragic as I had thought, I weighed about 6 pounds less starting this time. Woohoo! Not wonderful news because I still gained 44 pounds back of the 50 that I had lost, but I think I would have passed out If I had gained it all back and then some. I am obviously holding on to any good shreds of information so I don't think about the fact that this is the millionth time I have gained most of my weight back after a diet. :(

So here I am, it has been about 10 days of watching my calories. I haven't worked in much exercise yet because I knew eating healthy would be jarring enough on my psyche so I wanted to do a step at a time. I have gone to the gym a few times, but I need to go a heck of a lot more if I am going to see good results. I have lost about 4 pounds so far which seems slow compared to the start of my last diet where I lost 7 pounds in one week. I am sure it has something to do with being overly tired, having a bad cold, and very little exercise. I originally was going to do low carb or the 17 day diet deal they are always talking about on Dr. Phil, but my husband convinced me to just watch my calories instead of going with a set plan. I have been using fitday.com which is a good tool for charting out your days calories, etc. You put in your weight and what you want to weigh, and by when, and it gives you how many calories you must consume each day to reach that goal. I put in a severe weight loss goal and right away it reprimanded me for trying to lose more than 2 pounds a week. Well sorry Charlie...2 pounds a week is brutally slow...I will be 80 by the time I get to my goal. lol. I would like to lose a significant amount of weight by the start of summer. Ahem, what woman doesn't have that goal, please...

The good news? It hasn't been that hard...eating healthier and less calories...I actually haven't been too grumpy, which is good news for my kids. Luckily my husband was in South America that week so he escaped the wrath of Jill starting a diet...I am sure he was relieved. I am starting to notice my clothes fitting a tad looser, I feel less bloated...all good things. I think my next plan of action is to make a goal board of motivating images to look at when I am contemplating making chocolate chip cookies or skipping the gym. It sounds hokey and I usually make fun of people that make one of those but I am thinking it must do something otherwise people wouldn't do it...So, like a geek, I will find pictures of women whose figures I covet and dig through magazine to find pictures of clothes that I would love to wear but have too much pride to put on. I know it's a free country and I can wear tank tops etc., but I also "personally" think you need to look a certain way to be able to wear those things. I don't care if 99% of the female population decides to bare their upper arms, but JIll, will not unless she feels comfortable with the way it is presented...no wobbly lunch lady arms on this woman...nooo sireeee...